Thursday, April 15, 2010

Thoughts, thoughts and more thoughts

After bottoming for Beefy Latin Stud, I was sort of all over the place.  In the heat of the moment, I made the decision to do it.  I reached down and lined his cock up.  I thought about it a lot in the following weeks (after beating off that night and many other nights).  At the time, I didn't think much about it.  I was acting on instinct and desire.  If I had thought about it, I wouldn't have done it.  I know that it is hypocritical of me as I have topped a lot of guys that way.  So be it.  But it all comes back to two things:  first and foremost, I'm a top.  But it makes a difference when you top.  It feels better to top without a condom.  It's bad enough that lube tends to desensitize things, a condom practically suffocates my boy.  As a bottom, it was hot doing something that you is not "supposed" to be done.  But it didn't feel different as a bottom.  As far as just doing it, we have discussed our status every time we fucked, before we fucked.  It doesn't mean he couldn't lie or be mistaken but we did have this discussion every time.  Does this mean I am going to bottom more:  no.  Does it mean that I am going to repeat this when I do:  no.  Does it mean I am going to wear a condom more when I top:  no.  I'm going to leave the decision to the guy.  If he's up for it, then I'm down with it. 

4 comments:

  1. don't beat urself up over it stud!

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  2. I'm not beating myself up. That is why I prefaced this as I reached back and lined it up. I was the one who decided to do it bb. I didn't think it through but that isn't really an excuse or a justification. I did what I wanted to in the heat of the moment. It just shows you that anyone can caught up in it.

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  3. Let your inner bottom out. I have a big cock -so by default I have been almost exclusively a top for ... well, lets just say LOTS of years. In the past few years I have been getting in touch with the pleasure of my ass. Just because you have a cock in your ass doesn't make you a bottom. Topping is an attitude more than a sexual postion. When I get fucked - I am still in control... Still the Top in the situation. Just temporarily using the bottoms cock for my own pleasure. Think about it that way and you may find you take a cock up you ass - and LIKE IT - a lot more often.

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  4. Intersting - for me, I can feel condoms as a bottom. The latex can start to burn after a while. Natural feels better to me in the ass.

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