Back to the basics

I took you through the Nick saga so you'd understand why that mess, Hot Chocolate (who constantly is IM'ing me to fuck him again), riled me up. It wasn't about him cause he was just a hot fuck but all the nonsense of him that reminded me of Nick when he getting sucked into the vortex. I thought my only issues were dealing with my current man, I didn't even realize until I got into this that it went deeper than it did. That being said, I'm going to take a break from writing about my relationship(s) but promise to get into the current one as I am still in a state of flux over how I want to proceed. I have also quashed my vow of celibacy and have some good stories to hit you up with. I will forewarn you that I am not recommending celibacy but it did help me clear my mind and take the focus off being an insane slut. I can go back to just being a guy who likes sex and not a sex addict who needs the sex.

Closure

I really hadn't planned on writing about this part of the Nick saga. But inquiring minds have asked and I have put so much more than I ever thought out there, why not this. The shit he pulled with me ended up badly for everyone. He ended up in jail and I was "forced" to prosecute him. I use "forced" because he left me no other option. He did something beyond belief, knew it and was a complete ass about it because he didn't think I would follow through. He was wrong. He underestimated how much he hurt me, how angry I was and how deeply troubled he really was. We eventually put it behind us as he went into rehab and started doing better. But with addicts, it's a slippery slope. He eventually started using again and the criminal charges continued. It went from drug possession to theft, probation violations to prison. He really fucked his life up. I wish he hadn't but he did. I feel fortunate that I was able to leave and not allow my life to free fall into the vortex his did. I feel horrible that I couldn't do more. I haven't heard from him since he went to prison. I wrote him a note letting him know that I still loved him but was saddened by what he had become. He never wrote back. It was probably for the best. I think the shame he felt in knowing that I was right, that he could of done something amazing with his life and he wasted it. I only hope that he overcomes his self-destructive nature and does great things. Deep inside, the guy that had everything at his fingertips is still there, he just needs to find the road that leads to a better life.