New territory

I went out of town recently for business and decided to really enjoy myself.  I had never been to a bathhouse before and figured it was about time.  I know that we have a couple here but I have never really felt comfortable going to one.  This may sound dumb after all the shit I've done and shared but I was nervous about going.  Part of it is based on a more conservative view of my sexuality, part on coming out in the beat it over your head, safe sex era and the other in that I get nervous in front a group.  Not to mention that I didn't want to run into people that I know or would say something to my ex or one of my previous boys. Fortunately, I remembered a posting from a fellow blogger about being a newbie at a bathhouse and it was helpful to have some advice/pointers.  Here's a link to his site:  http://iblastinside.com/tips-for-a-bathhouse-newbie/.  The crazy part of the whole experience is how I created so much anxiety about being there that it was hard for me to perform in public.  I'm not sure that I can ever really get over that sense of awkwardness of sex in public place or in large groups of people.  It makes me wonder if I ever decide to go back whether I should get some Cialis or Viagra.  That being said, I'm glad I had a room so I could overcome my nerves...