Some confusion on my part....

I was pretty hot and bothered over the incident with Beefy Latin Stud.  I hit him up and we chatted some more.  He knew I was concerned about the way it went down and he kept reassuring me.  From my point of view, this was not going to be happening on a regular basis but if we met up soon, we could do it again.  The risk isn't going to increase dramatically or at all between Monday and Wednesday so we made plans to meet up.  I was totally excited all week thinking about it but was even more nervous than before.  When I went there that day, I knew he was going to fuck me but never in a million years imagined it being raw.  Now, not only was I going back to bottom again so soon but it was clear, we were going to fuck bareback.  My mind was racing a million ways and I wasn't sure if I would follow through.  Wednesday came and he ended up  not being able to do it.  Thursday didn't work for me.  So, Friday comes and I'm really doubting this.  Now it seems like a lot longer since Monday.  I know it was only four days but the immediacy wasn't there.  Plus, I knew that if a weekend passes, the window opportunity was closed.  I debated this over and over in my mind while I decided if we should get together on Friday.......